As I watched the Glee crew channel their senior year through music and cheesy ways of showing us all the story of how difficult making choices about the future can be, I realised that, that feeling is not reserved for all the youngsters choosing which direction one's education should take and what to become. The truth is despite already making all the choices and feeling that frustration which follows life-choices. Despite making through the education you have chosen, the feeling of being lost in yourself is still there afterwards. Or at least for some of us. Because then the choices regarding which career to pursue arrives. The doubt. What if I chose wrong? What if what once was the right choice in my heart is the opposite of what it wants today? And, by the way, who am I now without school, books and ambition of getting straight top-grades all the way through? - Which I by the way didn't.
I don't know where I am going. I don't know where I will end. I know that I on one side is safe. Whatever the future may hold I am strong. I know what I want. Or at least some of what I want (apparently having to do with anything else but a job) - and truth is, despite this being a completely out of the ordinary thing to say, a job is not going to define who I am. I am not going to let it.
frustration over and out.
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