The Course of Friendships

As I was trying to explain to a friend of mine how this situation was different in my world view from hers, she concluded that she didn't need to know because, "I know you very well". In my teen-years I would be thrilled of the thought that someone out there in the world knew me well. Normally I would pursue such friendships. Now? Now, I get annoyed and irritated by the very statement. Because, no you don't know me completely as I don't know you completely. Friendships to me is not about knowing someone to the fullest, however, more about accompany each other in life: Get to know each other better, learn more as time and life-events changes who we are. That's what I look forward to in a friendship.
People are not statically staying who they where when we met them. Time doesn't stand still in their lives, just because I'm on the other side of the world. People change. I change. It's the cause of life. I understand that there is something comforting in knowing, that someone I know will stay the same. But I don't find comfort in that anymore. I find comfort in knowing that my friends won't desert me as I change. That my friends will stick around despite my changes.
I believe what really strikes me in this situation is that I don't want to be "put in a box". I don't want to be told who I am anymore. I'm a grown up with a right to be who I am. The term "I know you very well" is just a security blanket. It doesn't assure us that we will stay friends. But if we go together through the stream of life events, through different times, through sorrows, through joy, all things that changes who we are. If we go together, if we accept each other despite the differences we have made - now that is an assurance of friendships. It takes time. It takes patience.
Friendship is like jumping of a cliff together not knowing where we land. Thrilling and disturbing at once.

A Whole New World

As I stepped outside from visiting my doctor, I saw my whole life flash before my eyes. Not in the sense of, good memories of family-gatherings or memories of friends I care about, but of food. My mind ran through all my favorite food I suddenly couldn't eat: Irish coffee, all sorts of bread, whipped cream, candy, chips, Lemon-moon-cake or whatever that cake is called in english. My doctor had proclaimed that I might not suffer from astma, but gluten-intollerance. Apparently my lack of better physics wasn't because I had terrible lungs, however, I had been eating the wrong things all my life. And that's pretty much where she lost me. She might have been given me all sorts of relevant and necessary information, but I didn't hear a thing. I just sat there trying to figure out what on earth I was supposed to eat then? My first thought was that my life has ended. Which was partly right. My life as I knew it had ended. A new one was about to begin. 

What was previously a wish, suddenly became a reality - not by choice, but by force. My body has literally forced me into a healthier lifestyle. I am aware that there are other choices regarding unhealthy food, but I choose to see it as an opportunity to get healthy and change my habits which has been destroying my body and my self-image.

Beautiful Jordan

In the summer of 2014 I spent 3 weeks in beautiful Jordan on a language adventure. I was in Jordan to advance my level of arabic, but what an experience.

I must admit at first being a little skeptical, however, the warmth of the people in Jordan grew on me. I fell in love with the beautiful land-scapes and the amazing tradition and culture in Jordan. It is definitely not the last time I'll spend some time in this beautiful country.

Walking in the massive and at times mysterious dessert, wandering what this hugh sandpit contains of secrets and mysterious guests.  Or the surprise it was to visit beautiful Dana, which was easier to get to than going from.

Dana is a little spot in Jordan with beautiful parks and primitive accommodations.
Despite it being primitive in most ways, it was a peaceful experience to sit on top of a roof eating breakfast and enjoying the view of the mountains crawling in on you.
Despite the difficulties getting away from this amazing place, it was worth a trip and I really advice everyone doing an effort to get to this little spot of heaven. Honestly, DO IT. I could have stayed there forever, just letting nature amaze me. Sometimes I am in awe of the amazing masterpiece God has created. God never ceases to amaze me.

When you spend time in another country so different from your own background your perspective broadens. My believes and my opinions is still the same after this trip, however, my perspective has  changed drastically during my stay here. God reminded me of that he loves all human beings, also the ones on the other side of the boarder of Israel. I met an amazing woman, my teacher, who kept telling us students at the language-school I attended, that "we're all just humans". Despite all the traumer she must have been through, she still held her head up high and came into the other side with a charitable worldview.

There is a lot of different, jet amazing people in the world, that just keeps amazing me. The jordanians are not the only ones.

Jordan - worth a trip. Just do it!